towritelesbiansonherarms:

plays-with-squirrels:

#steve baby #you’re in a plane with literally two other people #you don’t have to be captain america right now #you can say ‘sex’ #(but he still doesn’t because captain america is not a performance) #(steve rogers has always been captain america; only it’s been locked inside of him by his body) #(the serum didn’t make him a superhero it cracked open his ribs and made his body out of his heart) #steve was always captain america he just needed the right equipment and people to believe in him #nothing about this is an identity he needs put on #(i could talk for years about steve and tony foiling each other; #how tony has to put his hero persona on because he cannot believe he is a good person without it #how steve is the body and tony is the shell #tony is a hero because he knows he is not a good person and he wishes he were #steve was a good person; the best person; but no one would believe him because he couldn’t properly perform it #which is why his awakening is so tragic because everyone who knows it wasn’t a performance is dead #because post-serum steve is not something he can put on and take off like iron man #the costume and the shield are who he is in and out #but because they are a costume and a shield it’s easy to assume they are a performance #and neither of them has a secret identity because steve doesn’t need one and tony needs to not have one because he needs to be accountable as tony #because he knows if he isn’t he will never know if he’s a hero out of egoism or not #a gaping chasm in front of him that he is walking over on a wire #’can i be good if i am this fundamentally selfish’ #’how do i know when i am honestly being heroic and when i am putting on the armor of heroism to conceal that i’m self-absorbed and cruel #anyway steve is my favorite and his relationship to tony is my favorite end of)

#faggot

Source: fearthereaper